So, I'm not sure how twitter works. Although my mother is head of technologies and I have had a twitter for almost a year... the website confuses me. I've grown to love the whole "beautiful sayings in 140 characters or less" thing, but it took me a really long time to figure out a what a re-tweet was, and how to make one. And just yesterday I discovered that the little numbers on the tab at the top of the page are because you have a new tweet. So, I'm not exactly sure if this was her original tweet, but I got on twitter and saw that Tristan Prettyman had tweeted this:
Mmmm Hmmm! Holla! RT @NovellaRoyale "To fall IN LOVE with YOURSELF is the first secret to HAPPINESS"
This is relevant because: It has come to my attention that I pretty much completely and utterly hate myself. And also, because I realize that one of the very main reasons I want to become a musician is because I feel like if somebody else likes my music, if anybody else is inspired by a song that I wrote, I am worth something. In other words: If somebody else likes me, I'll like myself, right?
... WRONG.
There are plenty of loving, caring people in my life that 'like me', and I still have trouble escaping feelings of self loathing. I always feel like I want to get away from myself, and yet, there are so many people that would hate it if I did. So what has made me think that I would gain happiness from being a musician because, someone else loves me?
And besides that realization, I've also realized that to be anything you have to have confidence in yourself. I heard somebody say it takes more confidence then talent to be a star. how can anybody love me if I don't love myself? I'd ask SB, but he probably doesn't have an answer. <3 I want to be happy.
I've had this backwards the whole time. I thought that I wanted to be a musician so I could be happy, (well, along with enough other reason to make a whole other blog about.) but actually, I want to be happy, so I can be a musician. Make sense? Finally does to me.
I have the guts, but can't except any glory because I don't feel like I deserve it. So here is my mission: to love myself.
Mmmm Hmmm! Holla! RT @NovellaRoyale "To fall IN LOVE with YOURSELF is the first secret to HAPPINESS"
This is relevant because: It has come to my attention that I pretty much completely and utterly hate myself. And also, because I realize that one of the very main reasons I want to become a musician is because I feel like if somebody else likes my music, if anybody else is inspired by a song that I wrote, I am worth something. In other words: If somebody else likes me, I'll like myself, right?
... WRONG.
There are plenty of loving, caring people in my life that 'like me', and I still have trouble escaping feelings of self loathing. I always feel like I want to get away from myself, and yet, there are so many people that would hate it if I did. So what has made me think that I would gain happiness from being a musician because, someone else loves me?
And besides that realization, I've also realized that to be anything you have to have confidence in yourself. I heard somebody say it takes more confidence then talent to be a star. how can anybody love me if I don't love myself? I'd ask SB, but he probably doesn't have an answer. <3 I want to be happy.
I've had this backwards the whole time. I thought that I wanted to be a musician so I could be happy, (well, along with enough other reason to make a whole other blog about.) but actually, I want to be happy, so I can be a musician. Make sense? Finally does to me.
I have the guts, but can't except any glory because I don't feel like I deserve it. So here is my mission: to love myself.
