have you ever
been so trapped and alone that the only thing you can think to do is kill yourself, because most of the time even running away wouldn't let you escape?
Everyone says there is always a way out that isn't one of those two. But there is no escape for the kind of things wrong with me, and my life. You can pretend there is all you want, and that the world is a wonderful place and that in the end everything will be alright. But none of that is true, the world is only a happy place if your a happy person in it. And it seems like no matter what I do, if I stay where I am right now I'll never be a happy person.
But it doesn't matter. Nothing I say or do matters. Nothing I am, nothing I am every going to be matters to anyone. Because of my age, because of my gender, because of the people I love, because of the things I love. I'm trapped here, and if I'm here for much longer I'll never learn how to get anywhere.
I need to escape, but nobody cares because from the outside everything will always look like it's perfect. They all want it that way.
There is, currently, no way out. Question is, can I stick it out long enough, and will it be to late?
been so trapped and alone that the only thing you can think to do is kill yourself, because most of the time even running away wouldn't let you escape?
Everyone says there is always a way out that isn't one of those two. But there is no escape for the kind of things wrong with me, and my life. You can pretend there is all you want, and that the world is a wonderful place and that in the end everything will be alright. But none of that is true, the world is only a happy place if your a happy person in it. And it seems like no matter what I do, if I stay where I am right now I'll never be a happy person.
But it doesn't matter. Nothing I say or do matters. Nothing I am, nothing I am every going to be matters to anyone. Because of my age, because of my gender, because of the people I love, because of the things I love. I'm trapped here, and if I'm here for much longer I'll never learn how to get anywhere.
I need to escape, but nobody cares because from the outside everything will always look like it's perfect. They all want it that way.
There is, currently, no way out. Question is, can I stick it out long enough, and will it be to late?
