Beginners have permission to FAIL. Spread the Love

Beginners. Like quite a few but not all of the things I find incredibly inspiring motivating and comforting, the idea of beginners was brought to my attention by a Mr. Jason Mraz. Who isn't inspired by Mr.A-Z?


The lovely soul has the word "beginner" tattooed on his right arm. In a recent post of his he detailed the love behind the tattoo, making mention again of the absolutely beautiful quote: "A beginners mind is a beautiful place to come from."


"After all, beginners are granted permission to fail. In that sense, it’s not uncommon for beginners to have more fun."


I've been living off of this idea since he posted it. Like I said, this is incredibly inspiring, motivating and comforting to me in my current situation. Like most people, I've got a lot on my shoulders right now, and I need something to remind me that I don't have to be perfect. I'm a beginner, and beginners are granted permission to fail. 


So with that, I am going to use this as an opportunity to clear my mind of at least a little bit of stress, and to tie this is with another post by Mr. Curiosity:
I am a beginner at writing music, regardless of 15 years of experience.
I am a beginner at making a successful blog.
I am a beginner at speaking in public.
I am a beginner at performing for a crowd.
I am a beginner at catch phrases.
I am a beginner at making 1st albums.
I am a beginner at being in love.
I am a beginner at making money.
I am a beginner at being popular.
I am a beginner at dealing with anxiety, insomnia, tendinitis and asthma. 
I am a beginner at telling myself the truth.
I am a beginner at breaking bad bad habits.
I am a beginner at eating a LOT less meat because I can't eat things that were in pain when they died without thinking of there poor animal souls... (I feel like a cannibal) 
I am a beginner at gaining enough trust from my mother to be able to do things like I'm doing.
I am a beginner at buying apartments.
I am a beginner at making extremely difficult life choices.
I am a beginner at making long but interesting lists.
I am a beginner at staying out of trouble with the law.
I am a beginner at being a beginner. 

Jumping The Gun

Over the course of my life it's been a constant reappearing day-dream staying put in it's place in the back of my mind... something I wrote off as a fantasy and never allowed myself to get passionate about up until these last few years, where it slowly grew into what it is now, a reality. Even up until these last few days, it's been nothing more really then a possibility for the future, something after all this time I still wouldn't believe in. I've found excuses to use my music... even up to being a street performer as my job this summer. But since the ground fell out underneath me, and life has been moving faster then a speeding bullet in this last little while, I've decided to jump the gun. I'm gonna start playing shows, I'll be getting my music professionally recorded and selling it on online stores such as Itunes. 


Since I'm finally gonna have my music recorded on more then an old computer, I will have the MP3s files and I will be able to send you guys free music and such :) 


I'm also going to be having more then just club gigs and such but my own actual shows. You will be able to buy tickets soon, I will be posting the links as soon as dates are in. 


I'll also be hosting a creative activists gathering, -that's name has not been determined yet something along the lines of "YOU are BEAUTIFUL"- In Lakewood sometime this summer. I'll keep you guys posted in the e-mails I'll send you if you sign up for them right over there in the sidebar >>>> :)

Unfortunatly...

Unfortunatly I've come to the realzation that in my busy life I wont have time to recount all that happens with it like I want to. So I'll do it as often as I can, but until then I'll post short but informative aritcles with my videos and pictures. ie:


New songs under way, (currently rightng with my drummer friends Saxon)getting signed and profesionally recorded really soon, you guys will be able to buy my stuff on musc websites such as I tunes :D

A story of hope and love, in the everyday the-world-sucks life.

I think that this blog becomes more of what I want it to be every time I change it. Of course, I haven't posted in a while, and well... I haven't been together in a while either. after looking at how the blog has changed, it occurs to me that the blog comes together in the same order at the same time that I do.

And I guess it's time for me to grow up now, and in consequence I assume the blog will do the same. Since I haven't been posting a lot, I only have around 500 people looking at this blog, and I'm sure they wont mind if I change it, again. You see, I'm going to use this blog as something of an online diary. To detail the path I take as I hit the road running with my music, my best friend and boyfriend runs away from home and disapproving parents, I start working as a street performer and forcefully become more then I have been.

I see that since my life continually forces me to grow up faster then nature intended I am cursed or blessed with being a young girl with very adult problems and situations on my plate. (I'm not complaining, my life is interesting at the very least.) When you put those two things together, you end up with a person with the hardships of people much older then themselves, with the ideas and personal judgment and morals of the child they are.

That sounds pretty bad when you first think about it, then you start to realize all the good things about this: I'm still young enough and stupid enough to believe in things like nice people, good intentions, true love.. I still have hope for the world. The kind of hope you loose when you have to go through hard things, but I still have that mindless, less then innocent mentality of the child I am, and I intend to use it to it's full power.

Because, maybe that's what the world wants. Maybe the world wants someone going through the same crap things as them with a little more optimism then should be put into the situation.

So from here on out: This blog just became a story of hope and love, in the everyday the-world-sucks life.